Let me introduce myself. My name is Adam Orion. And everything you read on this blog is a lie ;). Including my name. My name is not Adam Orion. But for the purposes of Internet communications, you can refer to me as such. Most of the people who initially read this blog (if any), I would assume would be people from Facebook. I'm not writing this blog specifically for other people to read it. I'm writing this blog as a form of therapy. As a way to vent, as a way to share and a way to learn.
Over the course of the last two years my life as taken unexpected turns. I fell in love with a beautiful girl, who gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I went from being single -- a bachelor -- to being, a "husband" and father.
Needless to say, it hasn't been easy. I think women have a much easier time finding their place when it comes to having a baby. They are the mom. The baby immediately knows it and the connection is usually instant. For the dad, a lot of times its harder. I've struggled to find a way to form a good relationship with my daughter. She is the most beautiful baby and so easy to love. So that's not a problem. The problem is...my confidence. I struggle to find the confidence that my wife seems to have so naturally. It just seems so easy for her. And she keeps herself fairly stress free. Her biggest stress is probably me. I know second guessing yourself is not healthy, but when I look at my little girl and I see my wife taking care of her so perfectly, I feel like lucky to know that Kaylee has such a good mom, while her dad is still struggling to become a good one.
So, I guess that's my first post for the new blog. I don't expect many people to read it, however I will share through Facebook. Not Twitter though. Twitter can #fuckitself.
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